It used to be self-help books. I acquired them en masse with the hope that they would help me, improve me, change my life. I thought they contained things I needed to know.
More recently, I have been acquiring quotes. I like words, of course, but that's not the whole reason. I also feel a need to capture quotes for fear that if I don't, I'll be missing something.
While my quote phase isn't over, it has been joined by a search for tips on writing. I feel a need to capture and save these too. And, I have a tendency to look up more classes, workshops and retreats for writing.
As technology and my pursuits have evolved, I have acquired fewer physical items. Quotes and writing advice and classes don't take up as much room and create as much clutter as self-help books. That's good. I don't think the meaning behind these pursuits has changed though - I am still looking for ways to improve. While growing and learning are good, I find my pursuit of others' input overwhelming, somewhat tiring and kind of discouraging. Isn't my inner wisdom enough? Isn't that what led me to writing in the first place? No one told me to do that. I didn't need a quote on the wall. And I don't need to go through a list of tips to write. But somehow, now that I like writing, I am on the hunt for how to do it better . And it's not helping my writing or how I feel about it. Just like few of the many, many self-help books I bought helped me. In the end, I found my own way. I think it is time to trust my own voice.