I've been doing some thinking and realized that I don't have a good relationship with my body. It's not just one thing (although weight issues are a problem right now). It's more of an overall issue. I don't have a good relationship and it's possible that I pretty much never have had one.
I am not a talented athlete. I didn't feel attractive as a child. I thought that my neck was too long based on something a hairdresser said. My skin was too light according to some people. My hair was thin. There were other things too that didn't contribute to me feeling good about my body. I think that throughout my life, I have neglected what it needs or wants and really only paid much attention to it when it's hurt or not looking how I want it to look. I haven't respected it.
It makes me sad to realize this but it may be good. I want to learn how to care about what I eat. I want to be in tune with how my body feels. I don't want to be afraid of my body. I want to feel peaceful within.
While my relationship with my body developed for a group of reasons that's unique to me, I wonder how many other people would benefit too from addressing their body from the inside. Maybe other people are way ahead of me on this. Maybe not. I know that there's so much focus on weight loss. Maybe it's time to focus on feeling good within our own bodies and connected to them and feeling love for them.
Those are the thoughts I have on this matter right now anyways. I hope that I'm on the right track and going to make some peace with the various groups soon. OK, now I'm sounding crazy. I'll stop for tonight.
I can pick up sounding crazy another night soon.
Also, I credit the book "Women Food and God" for getting me thinking about food and the reasons we eat it and someone I spoke to yesterday who suggested I take a more loving approach to feeding myself. I am grateful for the input.